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Lately

Posted on April 26, 2006 | Filed Under Randomness, Day to day

Lately…

…I have not been writing much on here, even though I usually write really good posts in my head on my walk home. Although today I just sang to myself the whole way. Thats right! Not even caring if anyone heard me. I really wish I could sing well and actually carry a tune.  It started with a really annoying song that was in my head from the radio at work, and then I sang other songs just to get that one out.
…I have been very annoyed at work and managing to bite my tongue when really I just want to yell “SHUT UP” or “AAAAAAFRRRRGHHH”  and then realizing that its probably just me being grumpy. The job hasnt changed so it must be me. I think I am getting very antsy about having to continue doing my old job when I was offered a promotion two months ago. But word on the street is that there is a new person hired to replace me and she is starting in early May, but I wont hold my breath until she actually walks in.

…Ive been missing my friends in Victoria and feeling kind of cut off from them. It seems like every time I talk to them there is another big change going on that I missed or didnt know about. I guess its bound to happen, but Ive decided to try a bit harder at keeping in touch with the people I miss.

…Ive been really looking forward to summer and then I realize that its been almost a year since I moved here and somehow the time has flown by. And I realize that I feel very much at home and happy here.

…Ive been thinking that theres something missing and I think its because I dont really have a creative outlet. I dont draw or paint anymore and I dont write poetry or dance, or anything…Its something I have to figure out and start doing because I know I tend to bottle and keep things inside so I gotta let it out!  I feel a bad poem coming on….
Sorry this is fairly random, but thats whats been up.
~L

It’s official.

Posted on April 20, 2006 | Filed Under Rants

It is “Be Rude to Laura on the Phone” day. Seriously, what’s wrong with people? Why be mad at me that you dont know what you’re doing? Why be rude when I tell you you need to call a different office? sigh. Its only 1045am and Im already completely annoyed at everyone. I guess there’s a small chance that it’s me who’s grumpy today.

~L

Im a superstar…

Posted on April 11, 2006 | Filed Under Dreams

Sunday night I had the best dream ever. Well, one of the best.

Act one: I was participating in a huge race with a teammate, and the first event was a run. I ran so fast and was a super athlete. We reached the end of the run and then our coach told us to go over to this thing that looked like a rollercoaster track. It was a strange mixture of rollercoaster, waterslide and luge track. We got into the tube and moved along it and then we came to the downhill part. The tube went pretty much straight down vertically, and I was going along so fast, pretty much free-falling, but somehow still on the track. It was such an amazing feeling, so wild to be falling so fast, but not be scared at all. At the bottom I took a photo of the track to show to people later. Such an exhilarating feeling.
Act two: Next stage of the dream was that I couldnt find our coach anywhere so I went looking for him/her. I ended up at my parents house, where somehow my mother had another child, a young girl who was maybe 3 years old. I was babysitting her while my mom was out and comforting her because she was upset. When my mom arrived home, I was working on their ancient computer on some big project, but in my dream I wasnt exactly sure what it was yet, but I had to leave quickly to get there.
Act three: The feeling that I had in this stage of the dream was that of a complete superhero. The location was a huge building like that of a convention centre/hotel /theatre. The event was like a fashion show/ fundraiser/ concert, it was really busy and there was people all over the place. I walk into this centre as if I own the place and my dreaming brain realizes why. I am the person behind the event, I am the fashion designer, the supermodel in my own show, I am the director of the event, and I am the diva singer in the concert. What a strange feeling. I had so much confidence and I just knew that I had power.

Anyway, so Im back stage at the fashion show, over-seeing everything, and Im trying to find this one guy called Marcel. Marcel was the person who I needed to find to tell him something but he was always three steps ahead and I couldnt find him. So, then Im walking the runway as a model, strutting my stuff and I actually remember the feeling of my legs as I walked (I wonder if i was kicking in my sleep?). Later, with the fashion part over, the concert was beginning. I walk onto stage and realize that someone similar to Stevie Wonder is playing the piano, there is a huge orchestra going and then I start singing. My voice was so powerful and beautiful and it pretty much felt like I was born to do it. Such a feeling of complete confidence. (I actually remember the way my throat felt as I sang, maybe i was making noise as I slept?) It felt so real, the physical feeling of the sound coming out of me.

Afterwards, I go to my home, a hotel-like room in the same building and there was something strange with a safe in the wall and a wooden box. The thing that I was hiding away wasnt money, but some weird kind of currency, like stones/ rocks, or magic powder/ dust. Maybe it was the secret to being a superstar.

~L

Good times.

Posted on April 6, 2006 | Filed Under Day to day, Friends

It appears that I havent written anything in a while so I’ll try to do a little update, for the whole three of you who read this.
Work is going really well; I’m getting lots done and feeling in general quite productive, staying on top of mounting piles of paperwork. Only thing I’m annoyed at is that I’m still waiting for that promotion you heard about a while back. My manager is quite slow at hiring and so my replacement has not been found yet. sigh. At least the rest of the staff are starting to speak up and stand up for me, telling our manager to hurry up. That makes me feel good.

I’ve been working on being more healthy and active, starting with walking home from work as often as I can. And walking more in general. Thankfully my job requires me to go out and do errands in the middle of the day so i usually get some walking in during the day as well as walking home. In the eating healthy category, I’m trying very hard to eat less crap, including cake, pie, cookies, muffins, cinamon buns, chocolate bars, candy, chips, etc. Its hard to completely cut out, but im eating less of that stuff. Although, working in an office, theres always donuts, cookies, etc. around for us. Co-worker looked at me like I was crazy when I turned down reese’s pieces, but I dont mind.

Tonight I went to my first yoga class in a long time, taught by my friend Jen (thanks Jen!). It was really great, but I can tell my muscles are going to be unhappy with me tomorrow. It felt so good to work all those muscles that have been dormant. I am having nostalgia for my buff days, when I was training and rowing, running, working out…ahh to be seventeen and buff again! heh.

We had a really great weekend last week. Friday night after work we went to see our friend’s new band play at a pub downtown. It was the first time I’ve seen him play in this band. While its hard to let go of the past and the band that was and is no more, it was great to see him in this new group. I enjoyed it alot, and probably drank too much beer. They are off now for their Canada-wide tour and are currently somewhere between alberta and saskatchewan…
Saturday I slept in and then we went and met our friend Micah for an all-you-can-eat japanese lunch. It was really good. Micah likes going for japanese with me, cause I can never finish it all. heh. After a nice lunch, we went to Drixoll (sp?) games and hunted for new board games. We ended up buying one card game (Killer Bunnies and the Hunt for the Magic Carrot) and one board game (a new medieval stategy-type one called Caylus). On our way home we stopped and got some food and wine and met our friends Chris and Mel here to play our new games. The Killer Bunnies game was so complex that we didnt end up even getting to the other one. Whoever made this game up is quite disturbed. But its a lot of fun!

Sunday I slept in, and forgot about the time change, so I wasnt really on the go until almost 2pm. I somehow managed to get three loads of laundry done and the kitchen cleaned up before I left at 5pm to meet Mel. We went shopping on Robson St and had a great time, buying essential oils and underwear (not at the same store) Back to Mel’s to watch a girly movie and eat dinner. Our boys came home eventually, after their D&D party.

It was very good weekend! I think this coming one will be just as fun/busy. Pampered Chef party Friday night at Jen’s. Pedicures and lunch with Jen on Saturday, then Saturday afternoon Ive got a work party to go to for a couple hours, the rest of Saturday night is up in the air. Sunday is a free day, probably to do errands (groceries!) and housework, and hopefully if its nice out a big long walk…

There is alot of things coming up that Im really looking forward to and so Ive been feeling very positive and happy lately: Easter weekend in Victoria (I miss my parents) and April 29th is my great aunt’s big birthday bash on the island so ill be back there that weekend. In May I have two long weekends coming up, with possibly a camping trip!

There’s another thing that I am feeling really good about: I have a family doctor in Vancouver now! (Thanks Mel!). I went to her this week and she was very nice and quite proactive about the issues I brought up. She referred me to an allergist that day and got me an appointment pretty quick (May 24th). This may not sound like a big deal to some, but its pretty huge for me. Sometime in my late teens I developed a fear of doctors. To me, doctors offices/clinics/the whole place, made me feel creepy, and I thought all doctors were condescending, hard to talk to, uncaring, unthoughtful and in general mean people. I stopped going to my famly doctor and only went to clinics when absolutely necessary. I’m not completely sure where this started, I think it was simply that I felt uncomfortable talking to my family doctor and didn’t realize I could just find myself a new one who was comfortable to talk to. Anyways, the fact that I seeked a new doctor out (and actually called the one Mel recommended) is a big step for me and I feel proud of myself, even if thats a little dorky.

And here ends my ridiculously long winded update which could have been summarized for you with a simple: “Im doing good”.

~L.